I've expressed quite often how frustrating it is to plan events of any kind with my friends. I've tried to set events up 2 months in advance, 2 weeks in advance, and even a mere 3 days ahead, yet every time I get the exact same answer. "I don't know." I understand life can be busy and haphazard, if anyone knows this, I do. But not knowing what your doing even 2 days from now is just. Silly. It's depressing to get the same noncommittal answer every time I suggest anything, be it a somewhat pricey event plenty of time ahead or something with free food 3 days away. If you aren't interested, or if you have plans, just say so so I can move on to something else.

State of mind:: irritated

This week has been something else. I worked 47 hours that can actually be billed to our clients, was at work for around 51 hours, and an hour of transit each way, plus class this week. I'm exhausted. Lately things have been going downhill for me, I finally went to a dentist, and my out of pocket expenses will be over a grand if I don't plan operations right, I seriously fucked up there. Because of that ,I'll probably end up missing MFF, and probably FC as well, unless I can get some serious overtime and probably a raise soon.

RMFC was last weekend, it was, ok. I enjoyed visiting with Kamo and his mate Kat, and some of their friends, but other than that, I spent too much on a glorified fur meet. At least I didn't get a room.

Socially, things suck in denver. Other than the small crew I hang out with normally, I haven't met anyone new (to me) to hang out with, even after visiting a few meets in the area to see whats up. Denver rarely changes, and even with new people moving out, I feel I've exhausted Colorado's possibilities for myself, it doesn't hold anything special for me anymore. I need company, comfort, and change, and those aren't here for me anymore, and it often seems like people are blowing me off for the fun of it, or just not communicating. To that end, in 2 - 3 weeks I'm going to meet with the VP of US Operations and discuss what options are or could become available to me around April next year for me to relocate. I'm looking at Chicago most of all, and then phoenix secondly, and Florida is a minor possibility; but if they have something, I'm going to take it if it's in a major city. I want to be near a beach if I can find the opportunity. If things work out and I find something I like, I'll probably come out and scout the area and see who's around and if it's worth the trouble.

On another work related thing, my night shifts begin this week on Tuesday, I'll be working from 10:30pm to 7am, Tuesday through Saturday, it will suck having to work Friday and Saturday night, but if I do things right it wont last long, and I'll have Monday off to start seeing a psychiatrist to get some help and fix my shit.

Where I Am:: 80233
State of mind:: depressed
Whats on:: First (feat. The Unik)

Today is a good day. I just got the call from Longview Systems saying I got the job. I will now be working weekends as well as weekdays and class.  Longview will pay 100% of my benefits, including medical, dental, life, and accidental death insurance; pay 5% of my past years taxable income into a 401K plan, and I get 3weeks of paid vacation time per year, accrued at 1.25 days per month, 6 paid sick days, and 1 personal day.The base salary is equivalent to my current job, so I have, essentially, doubled my income. Fuck. Yeah!

Well, today I went in to have my financial aid for classes repackaged for the remainder of my associates degree, and the results aren't fantastic. I have secured about half through federal loans, both subsidized and unsubsidized, the rest, has been piling up in temporary credit that has reached a point where I have to apply for a private bank loan. Knowing my credit, I doubt I will be able to secure that loan, and since my parents absolutely refuse to sign any paperwork at all regarding my classes, especially co-sign on a student loan, things could turn downhill for classes. If things go down how I expect, I will have to either drop out or start paying cash up front for my classes. If I get the second job I've been gunning for, I will be able to pay for the classes with cash, but if I don't, I will have no choice but to drop out of college.

TLDR?

Fuck me :(

Tags: fml
State of mind:: worried

Things here have been going wildly lately. Some days are pretty good and others just suck balls. Work could be said to be going well, but what with all the work I have to do there stress has been piling up every day. If this keeps up I'll have to call in a mental health week and go somewhere far away and take a step back from it all... I really hope the applications I've been filling out turn up something for me in my industry of choice and with a paycheck that will go much further for me. I would like to be able to do more travel and see more people and more of my world, my current job just doesn't have enough potential to satisfy my talents and abilities, or my goals.

Things with the new apartment are going fine, have a large TV and a good bed, and I get some more stuff for the place about once a month or so and it's starting to feel much more lived in. Soon enough here I'll have a couch and I can move the TV into the living room where it belongs.

Thanks to Triggur I have a sewing machine to use so I can make a fursuit. Since I got a bunch of fur for free thats of really good quality and also bought some extra, I have enough to pull off a suit of any number of species, what I will finally do will have to wait until the debut. Whatever it is it will be done very well.

Hopefully I don't have any more days like today for a long time... I got rear ended on the way to meet up with the colorado group at the mall for pride, and although there was no injury or damage, it scared the crap out of me and threw the day off kilter. Then not going to pride at all topped it all off so in the end the whole trip was a waste. I really hope the week isn't like this, everything just needs to go smoothly.

State of mind:: stressed

BIG TV TONIGHT

Tags: writer's block

Well, the husky finally pulled the trigger. I moved on Wednesday, April 20th 2010 into my new home. It's a roomy 1112 sq. ft. 2 bedroom 2 bathroom apartment with a gas fireplace, full size washer & dryer, refrigerator, stove, and garbage disposal. I've got nearly all of my shit moved in, all that's left is a big desk and a few small items I need to collect. I'm finally free from the tyranny of my overly religious right-wing nut-job parents. Now I need to buy some bedding for me new king size bed so i can stop sleeping in the queen, and find a couch, end tables, a coffee table, and lamps. My roommate is my friend of several years now, a first for me to know anyone but family that long, will be moving in shortly once his job transfers him to the Thornton location, but he's on the lease already so I'm good to go. Now the only thing that's missing is a steady stream of visitors to keep life interesting. If anyone wants to stop by give me a holler!

BTW, to my parents: FUCK YOU

Where I Am:: ITT Technical Institute
State of mind:: relieved
Whats on:: Nothing

After taking a random, pointless trip to Estes Park, I've decided I will go at least once a month from now on, weather permitting. I stopped randomly in a Nepal gift shop, and stumbled across a strategy board game called Bagh-Chal which is a very little bit similair to checkers, and chess. It's a lot of fun and the shop owner played a game with me while I was there. I bought a set and also a small gift for a friend and then had dinner at Celitos Mexican. The food was good if you aren't a picky eater, but they messed up my order so I didn't eat much of it and it took a while to get in and out. The biggest disappointment I had was the plushie shop I know of in town was closed, only open on weekends. If anyone want's to tag along on one of these trips, get in touch.

Things lately have been moving along at a fast pace. Been getting my loose ends taken care of and I'm about to move out of my parent's place for the last time. I'm going to get a pretty decent 2 bedroom apartment with my friend Rithuld. I'm really looking forward to having my own place, no more living with my antagonistic parents, I'll finally have a place to call home. I have everything I really need to live reasonably comfortably, and may be, hopefully, inheriting some furniture as well. The thing I look forward to most is being able to have a pet, and to have visitors over whenever I want. That is the most important thing I think, and hopefully once I get settled in I 'll be able to have a steady stream of people coming by and saying hey.

Class is going strong again, nothing beats spending Monday, Thursday, and Friday night in school when you could be out having a good time, but luckily, I only have 2 and a half years or so left before I get my degrees, and get to experience coming home and not having to do anything after a long day of work except kick back and relax.

No more trips this year until MFF rolls around, I don't have any vacation time until August and having an apartment will cut my leisure cash down a lot, but around March of next year I'll probably do another trip.

Also, for anyone who likes to travel, feel free to come visit me starting in June through forever. I love company!

Where I Am:: Somewhere
State of mind:: Don't Care
Whats on:: Something

Well, what can I say. I enjoyed my vacation! It was pretty laid back, spent a few days chilling out with electropaw and seeing the area around Gulfport. We ate out a lot, checked out an AM and an FM antenna site, which was pretty cool... now if only my wifi pumped out that much energy :D I think my favorite part about the whole thing was fursuiting on the beach! we checked out the ruins of the Treasure Bay Casino, and got some kick ass pictures. I love fursuiting around in public, see how people in various areas react and such. Heres my favorite picture:

And here's a link to the rest

Enjoy! and thanks for the good time EP

State of mind:: content